shitscared

Tomorrow is NaNoWriMo day 1. Currently, I am a little shitscared.

I have just finished listening to Stephen King’s “On Writing” as an audiobook, and I was struck by his closing stanza, which included the observation that ‘the most difficult part of writing is just before you begin’. 

How true that is. I am currently finding an alarming number of excuses to ignore NaNoWriMo this year:  I’m shit, I have no ideas, I don’t deserve to even attempt this, I’ll never find the time, I have higher priorities than this, and the list goes on.

But as David Allen and Merlin and Stephen King tell me – you’ve got to give yourself permission to do these things. You’ve got to let your mind create, otherwise it will stop trying. I haven’t tried to write a song for years, and the songs have dried up.

I’m not sure where this rant is going. I’m not expecting you all to slap me on the back and cheer me on. I’m not asking for your help and encouragement. I think I’m just publicly admitting that I’m scared, and then rambling a bit.

Maybe you could just wish me luck if you see me around. And wish Gonty luck too.