Near enough to 2am

Yeah. I’m pretty sick of this. Being awake again and again in the dark, revisiting and rehashing the same unchangeable bad situation.

It’s time to move on, but I’m not going anywhere, and it keeps coming back and bothering me. 

I would have expected to be further along than I am, which makes me start to second guess my own estimates, my efforts, and my abilities.

And then I hear the horror stories from others. Which do nothing but add worry to all of us.

And here I am at near enough to 2am trying to hide the fear because fear is the mind killer and fear is what ruins the family and I refuse to ruin my family.

I’m sure it’ll feel better tomorrow - as long as the sun shines.